Muse #311 - but I do know
I lied. To myself. On a particular subject three times this month. Fully knowing that I am lying.
This was about tracking my exercises. I had set a low bar to do exercises that maintain a cardio heart rate for a minimum of thirty minutes at least 3 times a week. But yet, I could do it only two times in three of the weeks this month.
Motivation is hard. I understand that. Humans are fallible. I understand that too. I do have options not to lie. Even to myself. That too surely. Not required to feel guilty. Guilt has no meaning or value. That too.
Yet, I lied. To myself. In order to not break this chain. But, I feel miserable about lying to myself. So, I am writing about this openly to see whether this will motivate me not to do this again.