It is one of those days. With a low mood and zero motivation. A day when you are physically and mentally drained.
It was a day where I did not want to:
to sit down or stand up
get up or lie down
watch TV or open the phone, watch Netflix, Apple TV+ or Amazon Prime
switch on the computer, open a browser, read the news
Walk anywhere or not walk anywhere
have a shower
talk to anyone
sleep or not sleep
engage with anyone
engage with anything
do anything with my time
be motivated to do anything or nothing at all
curl up or not curl up
write this post
I wish that I could fast forward the healing process. Just by a few weeks. Not too much of a fast forward that nothing much is left in terms of time in one’s life. But, I do know that it is too much to ask and an impossibility…
Perhaps it is just one of those days. And tomorrow I will back to fighting it, all over again.