The next 100 days
from today to what next?
This is my hundredth post. I started writing on Jan 22. When I did, I had only one goal, to write. To write, in order to overcome the fatigue and my inability to work. I did not know what was behind those challenges. In February, even after my treadmill ultrasound test, nothing was conclusive. They told me that I had a strong heart and there was a little bit of murmur which necessitated an angiogram. And the rest is history as my whole life has changed in these last 100 days.
As I look forward to the next 100 days, I know that these days are going to be instrumental in where my life goes from here. Of course, I take the patterns of learnings from my past and these go along with me for a ride. I would obviously leverage these learnings and knowledge in order to survive as I can’t really start from a clean slate. However, I also come with the baggage of the past - the ones I would rather give up and give away, and yet I can’t or unable to. Not yet anyway.
My life has been a story of what I dreamt of it to be and the gap between that dream and its execution. My execution and action often fell short of what was required. There was always and is a gap between the things that I want to do, the things that I able to do, and the things that I really get to do in actuality.
So, here is what I see for the next 100 days…
Kick start my health back to a workable state
Get back to some productive work leveraging my skills, knowledge, and experiences. This has been an area of great despair for me as a change agent. I don’t believe what the market wants me to do as a coach, is worth my time and theirs. So, the trick is to look for opportunities where clients badly want it, so that I can help them with it.
Translate my life to act where it is required. Learn to quickly get mundane and repetitive out of my way, so I can focus the energies on creating something of value. Expand these daily posts which only focus on random musings into some structured niche thoughts that help a certain demographic or target segment with solving real and pressing issues.
Let go and kick off some of the baggage that holds me down. Much of it is mental and imagined, but hey that is the human problem - we are what we believe in, true or not.
Act on impact. I teach focus on impact and that is true for me too. I am going to work on creating impact in whatever I do, not go after the run-of-the-mill and the low-value add. And show and it is done.
And most importantly I would like to close with lots of thanks to you. Thanks for being there in my ride so far. It is much appreciated. I hope I have something better to offer every day in my stories as I evolve and restart myself over the next 100 days.