Everything is different
Muse #409 - of broken patterns and possible returns
One small change can impact a lot of interrelated things in a huge way. We often don’t think of it that way. It started with a renovation project at home - painting the whole house and adding hardwood flooring to some of the bedrooms. What was supposed to be 3 weeks is now into its 7th week and I am guessing my patterns are broken terribly and leading to depression that needs work to break out of.
One thing leads to another. It first started changing with my exercise patterns. The space and equipment became unusable. With all the clutter and use of the basement to live. Moving to stay in the basement for the last 10 days has made things worse. Added to the lack of exercise routine are sleep issues. My afternoon walks. Eating habit changes. Clothes being inaccessible leads to changes in dressing patterns. And Shaving. My daily weighing as part of my routine has missed three weeks now. I am in the no-mans-land of not knowing my weight. Hopefully, there would be no surprises when I do weigh myself again. Flying blind here.
Simple things like what shampoo and body wash I use. Not exercising has led to not reading my audiobooks. That is in limbo. It has even led to a break in reading the newsletters I love reading. That has stopped. And attending meetups that I attend. My favorite ones in Hongkong and New York have both stopped for more than 4 weeks. The interrelatedness of the cascade of things is huge.
And yet I know all these will come back. Just by getting on the elliptical and one day of exercise. Along with continuing my paused book from 2 to 3 weeks ago. There are possibly about 2 days of renovation work that should end this week. It is possible to revert this into a positive cascade of things.
But wanted to write today about how easy it is for a positive spiral to be broken and get reversed and sucked up into a negative spiral. And the fact that one could do the opposite with adjusting a few key levers. I call them “Small moves. Big Payoff”. And everything will fall back into place in time. But the fragility of humanness always remains distinctively in my background and this is what we need to be always cognizant of. All it takes are small triggers. Whichever way. And if you see life spiraling out of control, one could move it back with counteracting little moves that work in your favor.